Seperti yang selalu gue lakukan pada hari-hari stagnan dan standar lainnya, I watch movies. And today I watched Edward Scissorhands. Actually it's kind of disturbing, if you're not a fan of gothic Burton style. Awalnya gue kira ini film anak-anak tapi ternyata, tidak. At first I thought it was boooring dan gue melanjutkan menonton karena ini film terkenal jadi gue pengen tau aja. Turned out gue semakin tertarik ke dalam dunianya... I mean, if there's an award for sarcasm, this movie would win a lifetime achievement.

To start off, this movie is about a man called Edward who has - literally - scissor hands. He's not a human and the man who invented him and lived in a creepy mansion died before he was finished. So skipskipskip he was later discovered by a woman and he lived in her house. He find difficulties by having scissor hands but later find it handy because he can sculpt anything with his hands, like gardening and cut hair, etc. Easy, people were mesmerized by him. They called him unique and special. But then when he do something wrong - and he was framed actually - people began to mock him and threatened him. He ran away to his former mansion then something happened *i don't want to be a spoiler, well I just did tho* and he locked away forever...


Feeling something familiar? Yes, a cynical satire wrapped beautifully by Tim Burton and played by oh-so-fantastic Johnny Depp about our society. How could they possibly accuse Edward who's socially underdeveloped (I mean, he lived alone in a creepy mansion almost his entire life) for crime? He can't even divide what's right and what's wrong. And deep down inside, nobody is born with a hateful heart. Except maybe, sociopath, but well that's another story.

Siapa yang akan selalu ada di sana saat lo di atas dan siapa yang akan di sana juga saat lo di bawah adalah, masyarakat. They will watch your ups and downs, and they only watch it for their own entertainment. Come on, I know you all watched reality shows at least once and you were there, watching those celebs going through their ups and downs, and you couldn't help but judge. "Oh my Kim Kardashian sure is a pain in the ass" "Gosh look at those African kids so happy!! Thanks Justin Bieber!" don't feel bad about it, because it's programmed. Well not technically but our brain create automatic response don't they?

Btw sekarang adalah masa-masa terberat gue. Like, literally, berat. Maksudnya adalah gue lagi berat, gitu. Iya sekarang berat badan gue lagi berat-beratnya. Semenjak pulang dari US gue makan kaya babi baru tau apa itu makanan. Alhasil intinya berat badan gue naik lah, 5 kilo. Lebih deng. 8 kali ya. So when I read those magazines I was like "wat are those real ppl" 6 bulan lalu gue sangat tidak grateful akan diri gue and now I want myself baaaccckkk. Aku mau kurus lagi.. Even though gue juga gak berusaha sih, sekarang gue juga sambil makan gue tapi ini enak banget coy :(

Then I watched Edward Scissorhands and I started to think... No matter what I do, akan selalu ada yang bilang itu salah. Ok maybe its myself telling myself its wrong but I didn't create my own perspective - it was built. Pas SMP, gue merasa jerawat di jidat itu akhir dunia banget. Akhirnya gue menutupi pake poni. Pas mendingan, gue merasa akhir dunia banget gara-gara gue merasa keling dan dekil banget. Lama-lama gue makin gak mending deh jerawat menyebar and I never really appreciate myself back then when now I want my old self back. Pernah gak sih lo liat iklan sabun muka gitu ya terus dia bilang, "Kulit gelap itu cantik!" paling-paling juga "Kulit wanita Asia, keindahan tiada tara" ye yang lo liatin di tv itu orang cina atau orang campuran bule, kaya Pevita gitu. Ya okelah ada Maudy Ayunda tapi dia juga masih masuk skin tone yang fair lah engga item.

See what I'm trying to say? Society creates what is beautiful - and what is (they consider) ugly. Mungkin emang sekarang ga sekejam Hitler yang selain ras Aria harus dibunuh but it's pretty much the same lah, mereka mengagungkan satu nilai kecantikan meanwhile cantik itu relatif. Jadi menurut gue, gue tuh cantik banget sih padahal kata orang-orang cantik aja. Hahahahahahahaha so funny I'm gonna die of laughter

Ketika lo berbuat baik, society is there, watching it happened, and pretending they are your best friend, supporting you. Suddenly you feel like you're on the top of the world. But then you made mistakes, and they are your worst enemy. (This is a contrary to my belief 'you are your own worst enemy' but well). Then it comes to... How can they make certain judgement?

And the thing with Edward, people will *~ALWAYS~* make a certain judgement if something is different. Society only wanted to see what they wanted to see. They won't always want to see you succeed, or fail though. Ketika lo sukses, pasti akan ada aja yang berusaha menjatuhkan. Ketika lo salah, akan ada yang berusaha menjatuhkan juga.

The conclusion is, stay on the ground. Jangan mudah terpengaruh hanya karena orang-orang judgmental. F you society. Believe in yourself and do whatever the f*ck you want to do. I'll be a goddamn ninja turtle.

[this post was originally created 6 months ago but i never finished it so here you go]